My sweet girl is 3 months old today. Oh my precious
Chloe, why is she growing so fast? I feel like it was just yesterday that we
came home from the hospital. Mimi drove us home since daddy was working and
GiGi stayed with us a few weeks to help with the late night feeding and sleep
routine. We were so blessed with all the help and support we received. Even now
Mimi and GiGi still do so much to help out and you are one lucky girl, Chloe.
This month has been filled with holiday fun. We went and
took photos with santa...twice. Once by herself and the other with her cousins.
We also celebrated her first Thanksgiving. Since Christmas is just a few weeks
away we put up our Christmas trees and there's even a small one in Coco's room.
I've so enjoyed creating the memories. We also discovered that Chloe love to
hear mommy read, She loves books! She's started to blow spit bubbles and is
constantly sucking on her hands. (Which mommy isn't a fan of) some days she
sleep 6 hours straight and other she sleeps 3-4 hours at a time but, honestly I
love the time we get to share together as I nurse her and and Kiss your
forehead.
I came back to work on the 7th. Probably one of the
hardest things I've ever done. Although chloe will be taken care of by my mom
and MIL, I still miss her every day. I enjoyed our little mommy daughter
routine we had, we would sing, dance, play, tidy up the house, run errands etc.
Being with her made me feel complete, even though some days we had long nights,
cluster feedings and crankiness but all that was worth the joyous times of
watching her smile, hearing her sing along to my made up songs, watching her
discover new things and just staring into her eyes as I nursed her. Although
I'm blessed to have this job I hate that I have to be away from her and I hate
that this job requires so much of time outside of it with grading papers,
writing lesson plans, attending professional development, meetings etc. I hate
the idea of knowing that that is time that's taken from her. I know with time
I'll find balance and peace with this but for now it just hurts. I just hope
that my sweet girl knows that I love her and truly enjoyed being at home with
her when I could. I'm looking forward to winter break, and spring break to have
more time with her. Here's to hoping
that the rest of the school semester goes well and that Chloe transitions well
without me.
Love you so much my sweet girl, happy 3 months. May god
continue to keep you healthy and happy.




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